such a surreal place to stay

No one said it was easy.

I tried to bring myself to sleep at 2am. I lay there eyes wide open, till it was 7.30am. The first glimpse of sunrise, and I finally fell asleep for just an hour. I love to sleep so much, yet this morning, I had forgotten how to. It's like semi-nervous breakdown (except that I didn't cry), and I was out of sorts.

At 8.30am for the first time in a century, that I ever woke up. Turned on the computer, wait for 9.00sharp to enter the examinations directory. When I saw my grades, I felt so relieved! Like it was raining diamonds for a moment. It was a subtle outburst of satisfaction. And for the rest of the day, I didn't know exactly how to feel. Infact, even when I was outside, my mind was very preoccupied with the whole thing replaying over and over.

Thinking about the future at this point in time, after seeing the results seems really far-fetched. But really, if you don't have a plan ahead, then you can consider it pretty screwed up. We all want to work towards a goal, and it's good to know what we want in life. I have a plan, I work for it, and if I get it, then Great. If not, then...find another way. One thing for sure, I won't sit back and do nothing. Maybe this is why I've been feeling so strange all day long. Maybe this is a sign of growing up and having a taste of what it's like to take life into my own hands. Maybe all of you reading this should too.

Brenny is one sharp eyed bear, maybe she sensed something was not right, or maybe she just happened to ask so, that I probably was not okay. She's right. And wise-jolly Jelly remembered it was results day. At that moment, standing at the busstop, where I had to answer the question, so many things were running through my head. But after I had it out, it was really fine. :) These are two great friends on earth. A bear and a dessert. =x

And to the comrade, who fights along side with me every single day at school, Jane Lowlowlowlowlow, thank you for everything and for surviving semester 1. WE DID IT AND WE WILL TAKE PRIDE IN MAJORING ECONOMICS!!! :) don't ever forget this day that paved the way for us.

With that, it's gonna be a Merry Christmas afterall!

-for the mildly inspiring