just swallow your pride, choke back your tears

For Jelly,
Football fans are hands-down the most creative people on earth

And you wonder why the referees want to hold-on to their jobs in footbrawl,

The moment all players:

1. 'F' is the instinctive letter off the mouth
2. Lie through their teeth and deny till there's no tomorrow
3. Are tired, wants to pause the game for a moment, and pick a fight with the ref
4. Wants to be in the limelight, hopefully by tugging one another and then fight
5. Show-off their stunning display of crude words and crude actions
6. Try to justify what is right and wrong
7. Have 10 people talking at the same time, surround the ref and expects him to hear them out
8. Be a kaypoh and join the fight
9. Calls for desperate moments to earn a goal through reason and persuasion
10. Prove the man in black wrong

and you see for yourself who gets caught RED-handed 3/4s of the time.

This week's been great. Caught up with people, caught up with work. I can really sit down to study at home without moving about anymore. This is almost half a semester gone, and I can't wait to get over with the other 6 weeks.

It's taking me over, to realise how you've become someone else, I knew I didn't know all these while. And it throws me aback to see it in your eyes, that for everything you're doing lies a motive behind. I don't know why you're still doing all this to please me, when you know it means nothing and it doesn't matter if I realise it or not. I'm amazed by how your strength has crumbled into brittle weakness, with you unconscious or conscious of your every action that transcends into nothingness. When certainty turns into another form of certainty, I don't think that I can listen to you speak in the same away again. I assure you, that was the one hardest minute of my life I had to put up with, without thinking of stopping on my tracks, turn to you and say "I don't know who you are".

-too smart to carry on