diamond on a landmine

"The cure for acute depression is just round the corner. OH LOOK! Here it comes! A train!"

While I manage to transform all others to ashes, the only machine that ate me alive in the gym is the stair-climber. Harmless as it looks, it actually kills your pulses and cells. If anyone of you can do that, please give me a call.


Did I mention, I just looked at PANIC's new video and went "what the eff", but upon rewatching it makes me laugh. I can't wait for Tokio's New Album/Single/Video + AFI's Crash Love + Adam Lambert's New Album + Brand New Eyes + many more! And thank you Donna, for the Billy Talent III Album all the way from Canada! (ps: BT just released their video for : Devil on My Shoulder)


Maybe I should give Chester and friends a call, and ask him to drop by our crooked little town.


School has never really taken its toll on me during its fourth week, but this time it has peaked high. All the depressed little faces during tutorials and worn-out expressions everywhere is certainly creeping up on me. I can't believe I actually spent an entire free day exercising, and sitting down studying at home! Just to check, I'm still quite alive. Plus, 4 tuitions a week is slowly depreciating my knowledge. I pity the kids, but I pity myself more.


Adios!

and since you are already on this page, let me share a song with you that never fails to make one feel extreme pain + sadness. Till date, it's one of the best songs I've ever heard and read. Amazingly intriguing! After months, it's still on my replay mode. (and if you realise, it's my first time sharing a song on the web!)

Today I walked down our old streets,
Past the diner where we'd meet,
Now I dine alone in our old seats.
The cold wind blows right through my bones,
And I feel like I'm getting old,
But I wish I was getting old with you.

I held her hand as we took shelter from the rain,
She laughed as we picked out our children's names,
White sparrows, fell from heaven and carried her away,
Black arrows, cut the strings of my heart,
I kneel and pray.

The clothes hang in the closet still,
The phone sits on the window sill,
But everytime it rings it gives me chills,
My heart just stopped when I was told,
Doctor doctor on the phone,
Said my love was never coming home.

I held your casket gently walking to the grave,
Dark clouds eclipsed, the sun won't shine again,
White Sparrows, fell from heaven and carried her away,
Black arrows, cut the strings of my heart,
I kneel and pray, they gave her one more day,
To say the words I couldn't say,
Now I'm crying in pain.

No, I'm not looking for answers,
And I'm not looking for answers,
But dear god why did you choose her?





-why am i asking myself these questions all the time, when what I can do is to ask you? Good one, I don't know why either.