save me from myself

There's no other time I needed to write something down more than now.

Its so complicated now, I knew it all along, I saw it coming all these time. I just hate to be running into walls that I can't break down. And everywhere that I go, its like another memory that kills this state of mind.

How could we ever sit down to talk common sense when in the first place, what makes perfect sense to me doesnt' even make sense to you? You say you're this this and this, I told you I am that and all that. It's like  we're living in different rhythms, trying to keep up the same beat. That to me, is almost insane. I don't even know why I did it, I must be out of my mind.

Tell me your tragedy, but you don't realise each time you do that, you put the load right on me. I'm sinking in with you without even making attempts to reach for the solid ground because you hit me exactly where its' supposed to be. It's like you pick out trends and patterns to be able to predict almost exactly how I would react to every single move you make. But its time I threw my hands up, and told you, lets put this to an end.

So good with words, but each time I try to find my way out of this crazy whirlpool of ideas and whatever is happening, I'm always left speechless and it's not like I'm not even trying to explain. I hate explainations infact.

But I'm keeping my cool and finding myself, I don't think I ever lost it, in the first place. Which is why I still know what I'm here for. So could it be could it be that you're joking with me?

-honest to god, i will break your heart